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"Hello, this is Sonia Nevermind, the Ultimate Princess. Forgive me for not being available but duty calls me elsewhere. Please leave a message and I will make it a priority to reach you once again!"

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Sonia Nevermind ⬤ Dangan Ronpa
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From:

properprincess

[Sonia orders a sandwich and water, not sure if she'll be able to keep it down but determined to try anyway.]

I...[She lets out a sigh, seeing that he won't let her get away with trying to avoid the subject.]

No, I haven't been sleeping. There's so much for me to do and... It has been fairly elusive as of late.

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eyeswideopen

Nightmares or...the idea that all this could be lost? [He sweeps his bangs out of his eyes and gives his best friend his full attention.]

...Or something else? [He imagines her reasons for not sleeping might be different fro his. The lack of Hinata in his bed and the memories playing over and over to remind him, how what he'd thought had been unity had been nothing of the kind.]

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properprincess

[Sonia's hands go around her waist, trying to keep her emotions in check. She hasn't had a true emotional outburst in a while and she doesn't want to give it away, but it's too hard.

Cold mist starts to form in the air around them and she closes her eyes.]

I am living out a nightmare, every day, Nagito-san. And I have known that I could lose everything here for a while now. I believe it is the culmination of all the things that have bothered me, exacerbated by Kimura-san's arrival.

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...I was prepared for the day one of them would arrive. I took steps to deal with it...long before any of you arrived. [He extends his hand across the table. It seems like she could really use the contact.]

...do you want to hear about it? Or would you rather just tell me what you're feeling right now.

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properprincess

I have been trying to steel myself for the day that one of them arrived. Ever since meeting Naegi-san, Kirigiri-san and Togami-san back in the Neo World Program, I've told myself that should another member of the Future Foundation show up, I would be ready for their hatred, their anger, they desire for my blood.

[She shakes her head, pulling back more from the table.]

I have been mistaken. I'm... scared. Very scared, Nagito-san.

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[He holds out both his hands to her this time, giving her that option if she'll take it.] Kimura...isn't going to harm us. She's scared too as far as I can tell. She's also hiding something but that's her business.

I think I confuse her. We all do.

[He stares at the table before he says in a soft voice.] But I understand being afraid about them. I was and am. ...ha, even my memories, they scare me too. Here I have all of you. Back then...I was tolerated, if that.

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properprincess

[Sonia hesitates as she looks at his hands on the table. They are both familiar and those of a stranger. Considering their combined histories, his and hers both are covered in the blood of many, many people. And here they are offering her sympathy.

With a slightly self-deprecating laugh, she places her hands on top of his.]

I am not so certain that Kimura-san is harmless. As we both know, fear is a very powerful motivator and we are enemies to her, dangerous criminals with little to no remorse that harmed those closest to them for an abstract goal that wasn't even our own.

And she is a member of an organization that, as a whole, would like to see everyone of us, except for Nanami-san, dead.

[When he mentions being tolerated before, her cheeks flood in shame.]

I am sorry that I did not make more of an effort to include you in the activities that we had before you left. Nanami-san scolded the others about being cavalier in regards to your absence, but we were all responsible in a way.

Edited Date: 2016-09-25 10:56 pm (UTC)

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eyeswideopen

...it's only natural, Sonia. I kept my condition very much a secret and even knowing it. It really wouldn't have made much of a difference. I lived in my own world, and it isn't until now that it actually bothers me. [He closes his hands over hers, and notes that the scar is covered up completely that way.]

I was in no way the easiest person to deal with. Even then. [He notes wryly to himself, especially when he got to talking about hope. He still does it. Just now he's aware of it.]

But, I do agree...we were all very locked in our own heads. All the same, you are my best friend and I don't think ill of you for what happened! I think ill of myself.

[It's never been a secret here that he hates himself. It's gotten better over time and worse in other ways.] ...Kimura won't kill any of us. Not even if she has the chance. The Reaper is...a concern and she had every chance to murder me when I met her.

She didn't take it. But I definitely wouldn't look to her for forgiveness or mercy. Nor would it be fair to. ...is this why you can't sleep?

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properprincess

I am not looking for forgiveness, Nagito-san. I only wish to be able to work with her against our common goal of stopping Enoshima should she attempt something Despair-laden once again. Hoping for forgiveness for what we've done... [Her voice drops to an almost whisper.] It's unforgivable. I merely wish to make an attempt to atone for them by stopping what we helped create.

[When she looks up, she doesn't bother to hide how tired and worn out she feels. The waiter comes and puts their food down before them and she takes back her hands, only to pick at the plate in front of her, not really eating.]

I've gotten more memories back from that time. Sleep has been impossible.

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eyeswideopen

Yes, yes it has. [Komaeda notes quietly. Ever since the last set of memories and Hinata going back to his apartment for a while....sleep has been impossible.] It's difficult to deal with the memories and giving them the playground of dreams...

[He sighs and starts eating. It's something he knows better than to ignore. Even if his stomach wants nothing to do with food he has had a fair education on nutrition.] Handling on our own is tricky. ...you can always come talk to me about them.

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properprincess

[And though she knows she can't go without food, that a smart and fair ruler makes sure to eat nutritious food and to stay strong because their people rely on them... She just can't force herself to eat. The very thought makes her want to dry heave.

Instead, she just drinks the water poured for her on the table, her own fear making sure the glass is nearly ice cold.]

I know, Nagito-san. I appreciate the fact that you've been so willing to speak to me since my arrival. I know that I have not always been...the nicest to you or to Souda-san.

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You never tried to tie me up. [It's just this side of pathetic that that is how he measured all of them...but it's the truth.]

Ah and I really can't blame anyone for it. As I've told everyone already, I wasn't the easiest of people to deal with and I was dangerous! [He sips his drink. He knows that he isn't being fair to the way he was.But even now it's difficult to break that mindset.]

It's different now.

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properprincess

[She lets out a soft, disgusted huff of breath.]

No, but to be honest, I did not try very hard to stop them either. You scared me. Monokuma-san scared me more, of course, but you were too...wild. [She can feel her cheeks flame in shame.] I was a little relieved when we were told that Souda-san and Nidai-san had bound you in the old building.

And that is nothing to say of when we were at school.

[She looks up at him, curiosity written all over her features.]

What was the purpose of trying to make the practical exam cease to exist? Did you fear that we would fail or something along that line?

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eyeswideopen

[He blinks owlishly at her.] ...I see. None of you figured it out. [It's hardly surprising. He curls his fingers around his mug and stares down at the contents. The words come so easily.]

I wanted you to be at your best and asked for the exam to be delayed. There was media attention on it so,

[So Hope's Peak wouldn't delay it. Not when they wanted to were trying to bury a tragedy and the kids were the perfect distraction.]

There was no way to get it post-poned through the proper channels. It was bring pressure on them using the very media they were relying on...or. Let all of you be under par.

I couldn't allow that.

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properprincess

[Sonia looks over at her friend, even more curious as to what drove him to do what he did.]

Did you think all of us would be unable to perform under pressure? I'm not exactly sure what I would have done for a practical, but at this point I suppose it is moot. Although, I think that Kuzuryu-san and I would have been fine for that. Don't you?

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eyeswideopen

It had nothing to do with whether you could perform under par or not. I wanted all of you to be at your best. All of you. Even those who were affected by the situation, Koizumi and Kuzuryuu.

I wanted all of your potential to be possible. In short, I wanted all of you to have time to deal with the matter before they paraded us like circus animals.

From:

properprincess

[Sonia frowns, not sure that she's getting her point across.]

The part of being an Ultimate, Nagito-san, is the ability to preform under pressure. That includes the times when we might be paraded by those "in charge".

[She sighs, feeling as tired as she looks for a moment.]

As I said, it is a moot point now, but it does give me a better idea of how far we've truly come, both of us.